My Hiatus

Hey all,

I know, I know - I've been a blogging slacker as of late. Here's the reason (just a lame excuse): I've started writing in my journal again (yep, you guessed it - one of those new year's resolutions that will probably last until at least March) so I don't really feel the need to express myself on my blog as often because I am always writing in my journal. Anyway, I will try to be better.

This post goes out to two things this year that have already had a huge impact on me. The first is ASL. I am in an ASL class - first time I've ever attempted anything like this. I never took it in High School or anything like that, I just really decided that I wanted to learn it. I have fallen in love with. So much so that I am pushing back my graduation from BYU a couple semesters so that I can take all the ASL classes and hopefully become certified to teach it in a HS someday. I really don't have the words to express how enamored I am with ASL, the language, the culture that goes with it, etc. If you ever want to hear all about it just ask me in person and you may be sorry, but I'll definitely let you know how much I love it.

The second thing I wanted to post about is an interesting phenomenon that I've talked about before but just recently had show up in my life again. The idea that sometimes we resist good things. Sometimes it seems like we are given the most incredible opportunities (often exactly what we want) but rather then smile and run with it, we turn and run away from it. What is it about us that makes us shy away from something that we actually want? Why would we ever run from what we've been working for? Now, some of you are probably a little confused as to what I am talking about - allow me to explain. I love country dancing - love it. But when the chance to perform a country dance routine in our ward talent show came around my first reaction was to say: "Yeah, right. No way." I love the chance to serve in leadership positions and have really enjoyed a lot of the chances I've had the past few years, and yet when my professor joked about me being the President of my major for yet another year the first thing that came out of my mouth was: "No way, you wouldn't do that to me...." Even though I really do like it - I don't get it. Or another classic that has been heard many times by many people: "You are exactly what I am looking for in a _________ ((husband, wife, boy, girl, etc)), but I can't date you..."
Why do we run from what we are looking for?
I have two ideas. I'm not really sure if either one is right but they could be.
1 - When we get what we want we realize that it's not really what we wanted after all.
2 - We are creatures of habit and it's just easier to not change the status quo than it is accept something great and also make the changes that would come with that change. It's scary to make changes - it's hard.
I'm not really sure if those are the only two reasons we do this, but I think they are some of the reasons we run from great things that come to us.
Let me end with this quote:
"Let us not take counsel from our fears." - President James E. Faust